Hi! Wow, it’s been a really exciting and wonderfully CRAZY week! Lots of you have been asking about the clips and the new website and if it’s OK to pass them along to friends and family via email, Facebook, etc (the answer is YES! and Thank You), so I thought I’d take a second to give a quick update since a lot has happened over the last few days.
Ha, here I was so sure that my “Type A” was well in-check and in a matter of one phone call and a few hours, I found myself in a very familiar “GO!” mode. To be honest I was relieved that I still “had it” because I’d wondered, silently, to myself if I’d “lost it” and, if I had, what that meant. Everyone around me, those who love me, are worried I’ll go back to my relentless ways, and yet I’ve learned something very important over the last few days.
My gift, what God gave me (as he gives each of us) is focused attention and endurance. It’s what saved my life. It’s a big part of the message I want to share with the world, but it is also something I have had to learn to keep in check. I know this about myself and I understand it in ways that I wouldn’t have been able to otherwise. I wrote a chapter for the book recently about “pushing” (I think it’s pretty good, if I do say so myself) because it seems like I came into the world that way. It never felt like a choice to me, it’s the only way I knew how to do things. I honestly didn’t know it wasn’t what everyone else did until people started saying “Really?…Really?…”
Anyway, there’s more to that story and it will all be in the book but the point is, I felt these familiar defaults stirring and I was both relieved and worried. I worried that this was the road back to who I was, to the relentless drive and merciless pace I demanded of myself before. And yet as I went, it was different. I was excited yet very conscious of keeping it all in check and thrilled about what I was doing. So even though I didn’t move from my chair for the better part of two days trying to get emails, postings and the website launched to be ready for this great opportunity. Neil came home on the second day and said, “Have you even moved from that chair yet?…”Nope.” I don’t know what it is, but I can just keep going. Tired, hungry, need to pee (OK, that’s over sharing) but really, I don’t know why but I just keep going. It’s like I have blinders on, I just see what’s in front of me. So that’s really great when it comes to saving your life, big projects and such but it’s something I have to keep a tight rein on because I’ll just keep going until I drop…literally.
I’ve spent the better part of two years undoing a lot of that and I was excited to see VAST improvements in this scenario. It felt good to be “going” again and I felt myself very calm and relaxed as I went. Yeah, there was a lot to do, but I wasn’t worried about it. Man, I guess all those hours of visualizations, affirmations and meditation really did pay off! Anyway, it felt good, and I’ll say it, I was proud of myself.
Anyway, the clips are up on my website now and also below. I’ve been continually revising the content of the website, correcting typos and such and I think you’ll be shocked as to how different it’s going to look in a few weeks when it gets it’s “aesthetic” overhaul. I told you I’m a recovering Type A and it took a leap for me to just get something out there, but I learned an important lesson there too. Sometimes you just have to do what you can, put it out there and show what ya got, because something is often better than nothing. I believe it’s Apple’s rule to launch their products when they’re only 80% done. Every time they launch a new product they know it’s not 100% but that the other 20% will just be fine tuning. Well, they’ve done OK for themselves, so I think I’ll go with their business model and see where it takes me.
Speaking of business…you may (or maybe not) be wondering why “Alyssa Phillips Inc”? Well, I’m not incorporated (not yet anyway), so the short answer is alyssaphillips.com was already taken, but the other reason is “API” was something Neil has teased me about for awhile now. I’d be sitting at the breakfast table in my jammies, typing way, and he’d smile and say, “Busy day at API today??”, as he left for work. I’ll be completely transparent here too and say that all this “Alyssa Phillips’” stuff goes a bit against my grain, so to speak. This is all something I’m very passionate about, but it’s also a little weird to put myself “out there” like that too. I was always content being a very “regular” person but then these “un-regular” things started happening to me. So even though it’s all intimately involved, in my mind, “Alyssa Phillips Inc” is the message and “Alyssa Phillips” is the person, ya know, just me. You see, having lived it is a bit different than having watched it, so “API” allows me a seat with everyone else. It’s been a bit of a leap of faith for me and taken me some time to embrace my own story, but I’m ready to step up to the plate now. That said, my only intention in doing any of this is to help people. That’s the long and the short of it. I want to help people…with what I know, what I’ve been through and what I’ve learned. I’m not the first person to go through something like this and, sadly, not the last, but I know that that’s why I was given this and I know it’s what I’m meant to do. So I’m stretching myself. I’m leaning into what I know is right and trusting where it leads.
But I’ll say this…I think I’ve written more this week than I think I ever have and I’ve discovered something. You can get a lot of …. stuff done when you have too and that you can actually over work your fingers. I’m use to a sore tush or abs from working out, but never have I had sore finger tips. A first.
So the race is tomorrow morning and I want to thank all of you who have joined and or donated. We’re really excited and I’ll look forward to posting some photos on the new website. Speaking of…as I said above, the two TV clips are up on the website…yes, I said TWO! I must be the luckiest girl alive because, not only was the story shown on “Atlanta and Company” with my friend, host and fellow blog follower Christine Pullara-Newton but also on Conn Jackson’s show. Amazing!! And if that wasn’t good enough, Christine also re-mentioned both the race info and my website again on today’s show! Blessings abound and I am so grateful to them both for helping to get this message out of hope and healing to anyone and everyone who needs it. I know what it’s like to go through some things and if I can help someone who finds themselves in a tough space in their life with something I know about or just to say “I know…” so they know they’re not alone or encourage someone to donate blood, bone marrow or cord blood that could save someone’s life, then I can’t image anything better.
Well, it’s late and I’m popped. Big race tomorrow and I plan on winning, so I’d better get to bed. Please do go to the website and check it out. If you went earlier and saw all the typos…sorry. And please give me a pass on this one tonight too ‘cause I just typed it as it came out of my head. Usually I try really hard to find all those pesky little typos, but no matter how many times I read over them, once I send it out, it’s like they just leap off the page, screaming “Missed me, Missed me!!” But that’s OK, I’m done trying to be perfect. I think I’ll just be me instead…it’s so much more fun that way anyway. Make sure to sign in with your email address when you go to the site so I can keep you updated as we transfer over. And please excuse any repeating messages that may come your way in the process as we get it up and running…”Pardon My Progress”, right?! :)
Thank all of you for all your wonderful support and encouragement. It means more than you know.